oh my

This has really been a weird day for me.  For the first thing I have not been sleeping all week. Sometimes only a couple of hours.  As you all know this is not my norm anymore.  I stay up til midnight occasionally but for the most part we go on to bed.  I am hardly ever up and dressed til after or around 9.  Then we lay around ( Wesley and I) for an hour or so at odd times throughout the day.  Wesley has had so much fatigue.  He has to have rest periods.  Well, I just lay around but I don't usually sleep because it messes up my nights.  I'm still not getting anything done.

I have been burdened about several things lately and  I always blame sleeplessness on my brain being busy with thoughts and prayers.  I have been in despair because I can't seem to get my wound well.  Then added to that is all this sugar level problems Wesley and I have been having.  You may not know if you've never done it; but sugar monitoring for two is extremely time consuming, and I don't do it well.  It seems like I am always either giving a shot or sticking the finger of one of us.  Incidentally Wesley's sugar was too high to monitor again tonight.. It is so dangerous.   He is also struggling with his therapy because he wears out.  He is frustrated because he ONLY mows.  He wants to do it all.  It worries me because it makes him seen ungrateful for the recovery he had made.  I am frustrated because I am not getting any thing done.  I have so many project that I want to complete.  I have so many things that I want to do for others.  I can't seem to get anything done.

I will be so proud to get the finances situation behind me.  I am so looking forward to next Friday when we will get a final analysis.  I have almost waded thru the boatload of paperwork that comes with it. I feel so inadequate about meeting the needs.  It is really a hassle with the phone calls and such.  And to add to my failure is the fact that we would not be in this shape at all if Wesley were in charge.  I keep telling the Lord  I NEED my husband back WELL.

I am in prayer for Zita about her needs, and the things she faces financially, with her car and wanting to get the carpet laid down and then on top of all that to have unrest at work.  God gives PEACE.  I ask right now for (all of my sisters and brothers, too) for God to cause an end or a rest from the "troubling".

I trust that Jennifer will see some peace now that Max is home.  I am still praying for Dave to get financial blessing without having to sacrifice his health.

I pray for Glenda, Perry, and their family, from the oldest to the youngest, to be consumed by God's love and direction so that they may do what is good in the sight of the Lord.  I am asking for settlement to be made and blessings for Perry's siblings and their household.

Help me pray.  God is faithful.  He is a reward er of those who seek His face. May we become one in our endeavor to put on Christ.(be clothed upon by his anointing as JW used to say).

God is good, God is good, and again I say  GOD IS GOOD